Miniepiph

Epiphany: 1. a sudden intuitive leap of understanding, especially through an ordinary but striking occurrence, a sudden realization. 2. the supposed manifestation of a divine being, appearance of god. (Encarta Dictionary)

Friday in my Intro to Literature class the instructor, Dr. Brown, made a comment that really got me thinking. She said that books and movies were full of people having epiphanies but very few people ever really have one. Most of the time for most people life happens and we don't really figure out the lessons it has for us until long after. Now this seems extremely ineffective to me. And yet, the more I think about it the greater realization I have that it's true. I also believe that for myself there are lessons that I resist and even rebel against. The outcome of this resistance and rebellion is much less than pleasurable.
Waiting until you are in your forties to submit to the lessons that came to you twenty plus years before is at best bitter sweet. It seems that one must become less malleable with age. Thank God that I haven't become so brittle that I shatter instead of bend around the mold of who I truly am.
I have tired with living a life of settling. Settling for jobs that don't allow me to grow into my full potential. Settling for a lackadaisical lifestyle that robs my wife, my kids and myself of the awesome, adventurous journey that is life. Life with some effort, planning, and discipline can be so much more than any of us have even dreamed of. So I'll continue to take the bitter sweet pills and I'll endure the strikings of the creators mallet while I'm trying to become softer, more pliable and I'll be looking to learn the lessons of life in a more timely manner.
I'll be looking, hoping, for more miniepiphes.